how can I save everyone around me and myself from myself? After the birth of my son I've been dealing with postpartum depression, and a losing battle at that. I was on antidepressants with in the first two months of his life, then about a month ago I couldn't afford to get my percription filled, so I said fuck it I'll just have to deal. Well it was one or two mornings after that decision, I was stilling on the floor playing with my son and I had felt something for the frist time. . .I felt pure joy, and never untill that point in his five and half months of being alive had I felt that...then I noticed I was feeling other things having more happy moments. I stayed off my pills, my bad moments get progressively worse, but I feel little moments of happy. The antidepressants numbed my emotions. . .and didn't get rid of the bad moments all together they just numbed them too.

Today was a bad sceene, and I'm just starting to drive everyone crazy. . .I don't know what to do. . .or how to deal. I get so mad, over anything. . .I get maybe 2 hours of sleep in a night. . .i`m going on my 3 rd day of being awake (I`m supposed to be sleeping at the moment)

how do I save myself from myself. . .my boyfriend is giving me his bank card so I can go get the perscription filled for the antidepressants...so I guess I`m going though life numb. . .